As I recall back to yesterday, all I can think of is my morning throwing up sessions and thinking I am not going to make it today. I was so tempted to call 911 and let them just take me to the hospital, but a friend came to the rescue. He helped stabilize me so that I could function the remainder of the day.
All you gals and guys better watch out, I have a new best friend in town, it's call the toilet. I think I hug this thing more often than any person I have in a long time. My toilet doesn't even have a cool name, some generic brand. Now how cool would it be if I said I am hugging my "flash o matic 2000, supercharger". Now that would be something to talk about :).
By late evening I was able to even take a small walk to the lake and half way back. We sat near the lake and just talked about incidents in our past that linked us. It was interesting and fun to be doing something other than talk about my illness.
Today,I managed to throw up a few times this morning. This kind of ruins the day as I feel extremely tired and out of place. I am trying to keep hydrated. It's a bit hard to do as my mouth and throat are a bit sore from throwing up so much.
My focus on anything is so short lived. I get tired talking to anyone for more than 2 minutes, I get tired typing or when I text, I can't read my books that I so want to read, I can't focus watching TV or anything.
I am trying to keep a positive outlook in hopes that after a few more Chemo,things will start feeling and looking better.
I want to thank everyone for their prayers and best wishes. It is nice to see this and keeps my mood high. For all my friends and family who have come here and taken care of me, please note that I could not have done without you. I am blessed and lucky to have you in my life.
Rina,
ReplyDeleteYour courage is inspiring. Things will get better. Please stay positive. Just a few more chemo sessions, and you're done!
Tara
I think you should just give your toilet a cool name, like maybe LooLoo or Capt. Harington, or something... :)
ReplyDeleteBig hugs. Can't wait to see you in August! 'til then, I send all my love and will continue to pray for you.
- Ken
Ferdousi, you are truly an amazing person. I admire your strength and determination. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Keep strong. Love, Jackie
ReplyDeleteGood Lord, this new technology thing is hard! I'm still back in 1995, tech-wise. Rina, hang in there! I know you feel miserable and fuzzy, but the chemo kills the bad stuff, so that's got to be a good thing. Plus, it's encourging that your blood counts rebounded so fast. You're a strong lady and I believe in that strength. Love you girlie - and I think you should definitely put some thought into naming your toilet. I've got baby name books if that will help. Is it male or female? Hmm, okay, not sure about that last question.
ReplyDeleteMuch love, Laura
Ferdousi,
ReplyDeleteWe just found out this week from Bird. Keith and Deborah forwarded us her message. I want you to know that I am praying for you everyday. Even in the middle of the night last night you were on my mind and in my prayers. May God strengthen you and encourage you. I didn't realize that you are in the cities. Steve works in Roseville and if you want company we would love to see you. Let us know. My email is gjk.holden@gmail.com
You are so strong and encouraging. Even in this trial, I know that you will persevere. You have a determined spirit that I admire. Stay strong!!
Praying for you!
Glenda Holden